My doctors say that I should stop drinking coffee. I have cut back to 2 cups a day. It kills me to do it. I mean, I love my coffee. Seriously. I even bought a Kuerig coffee machine to help. This way instead of having a pot of coffee always facing me, calling me, I only have one cup at a time.
I am playing coffee games a bit. I do generally use the pods filled with Maxwell House. (This one brand does not give me headaches. It was a tip from a co worker with MS on a recommendation from her doctor. It works. No headaches.) I want to have a few pre made pods on hand so that when company comes, I don't have to mess about filling pods. Last time I picked up a box, I inadvertently grabbed decaf.
I thought about it. Maybe decaf would free me to drink as much as I wanted. So I would start my day as usual and then have a cup of decaf later in the morning. The box is empty now so I guess my test is complete.
Did it work? Am I now free to drink as much coffee as I want? Absolutely not.
I look back to last week when I started this decaf adventure with my blog posts. I checked my journaling to see what was noted. And do you know what? I can see the decaf in my accomplishments for the last week, culminating in yesterday's misery knitting.
This is what was successful. I knit a few stitches here and there and just felt nothing was right. I started the I cord which I decided I do need for my blue sweater, and couldn't sit even for that. It's four stitches and sublimely restful knitting and it felt like nails on a chalkboard. I did stuff here and there and just couldn't seem to find anything that worked. I felt twitchy and jumpy and like a little kid when they are told to sit still.
And that is the decaf at work in me. Years ago when I worked in an office and drank lots if coffee, I found this same thing. Decaf makes me twitchy. Finding my hyper focus was impossible. And that is how I feel today.
So this weekend I will clean the decaf out of my system and will return to normal, shortly. I hope. It is possible that there are other factors at play. Like having to deal with pictures from long ago. Like getting rid of yet another thing from the past but I think, more than anything, the twitchy is the decaf.
It's nice that this test is done. It's even nicer that I will get two cups of really great coffee. Not so nice as having as much as I want, but hey.