Friday, 14 January 2022

Acting like a three year old.

The first thing I picked up this morning was my sweater and very quickly, it was at the end of the ball of yarn.  I have two balls of Stellars Jay and one ball of Aulavik National Parks colourway remaining.  In my head, I like to keep a ball of yarn for each sleeve.  In this case,  I have striped sleeves so I need a ball of blue and a ball of the more multi Aulavik.  

It is complicated a bit by my wanting a bit more of just the Stellars Jay at the bottom than just the cuffs.  I am was going to weigh the yarns so I could make sure that I had the same amount available for each sleeve, but the battery is dead on my scale.  I will have to just wing it.

I am sure it will be fine. 

Maybe.  We all know how that goes.

I also wanted to show you my pretty cowl.  

I did not get very far along it yesterday.  I had a really long nap, as in I pretty slept the day away.  I also had a really good sleep last night so I figure one of two things is going on.   I am getting another cold or it is time to see my doctor to get an assessment done for depression.  

I am actually leaning towards the first of the two.  I have been struggling but a lot of that comes from being so very very tired.  Even to myself I sound like a toddler who has just been through too much. I had a good talk with myself yesterday evening about expectations and reality.  If I wasn't so tired lately, perhaps my ability to recognize when I am allowing my expectations to rule the world without allowing for a healthy dose of reality to be in play as well, would be better.  My prescription for myself is more naps.  And switching back to the slightly older blogging routine.  

If a week of focusing on intentional napping and tracking if I feel more myself in my world is not helping, then a visit to a health professional might be in the offing.  Maybe not even a doctor.  There are some great resources out there to help you through pandemic mental health issues.  And that is absolutely part of my struggles this year.  

For now, back to work on my sweater to get sleeve one underway and much more knitting before my nap.

Thursday, 13 January 2022

Going back a step

As much as I love the knitting I am doing, I find myself struggling.  Till now I have been managing to keep my spirits up and to lift them when I went through a bit of a valley.  But the past few weeks, I have been struggling.

I am going to make a few changes to the general routine of my days again and go back to what I used to do.  I will write in the morning and if that means plans I never do, well, so be it.  I am finding that I am just so tired in the evenings that it is hard to write sensibly and my will to edit for is completely gone.  It is possible that you guys don't notice it, but I sure do.   

So back to the older routine to see if it helps to support my sturuggling self.  

Wednesday, 12 January 2022

Yarns that Whisper

I knit for a very short time on my sweater this morning.  sometimes you just have to give your hands a rest.  So being it was my zoom knitting day, I had a good long think about what I was going to knit.  I am trying not to start a hundred different things so I was restricting it to what was in my WIP chest.  I dug around for a bit and came up with a very pretty shawl that I was working on.  

I was knitting Carina Spencer's Brush Creek Shawl with some Truly lovely delicate Shilasdair yarn that a friend, Rae gave me a few years ago.  The yarn is gorgeous stuff and while I liked the design, I wasn't really committed to it.  I am very committed to the yarn though.  It is a soft blend of merino, angora, cashmere and baby camel and it deserved a pattern I really liked.  Here it is in its shawl incarnation.

I do wear shawls here at home.  They cover the back of my neck if I am not wearing a turtleneck.  I appreciate them, but the ends kind of get in the way when I am doing things.  What I really, really like to wear is my cowls.  The one I made of Adam and Eve and some Shibui Silk Cloud is in constant use.  I also use the Topsy Turvy Moebius made from a Skein of Silk Mini Maiden from Handmaiden. That has been in constant use since I finished it.  I also wear the cowl I made for keeping in my car for emergencies except it is out in my car.  For emergencies.   Clearly I need more soft delicate cowls.  I did knit one the other day but that is going to be one for the car.  It is too long and a bit bulky for in the house.  It is nice though.  

It struck me that what this yarn needed was a cowl pattern for 3colours with some interesting stuff going on but not too much patterning.  The angora in this gives the yarn its flair and show so you don't want to hide that with lots of lace or cables.  This is one of those yarns where it just needs to speak its own truth.  And I just happened to remember Joji Locatelli's 3 Color Cashmere Cowl.  That was exactly what I was looking for.

That deep orange red madder colour will do the showy bit and the other two softer tones will be doing the alternating dance.

I just finished the first plain section.  Plain is not really the right word.  There is an alternating openwork pop every few stitches and rows to keep you focused and on your toes.  I have just added the second colour and then that whole repeats again, first in the mushroom, then in the natural.

The stitches are just utterly perfect as they go round and round.  The yarns whispers.  It doesn't flow or drape.  At the end of this, I know it is just going to whisper and settle into soft folds around my neck and I can hardly wait to wear it so I can whisper back.