Tuesday, 31 December 2013

A 2013 roundup

I usually find myself sitting here at this time of year, knitting something new and interesting.  This year, I am knitting on the one little before Christmas thing that did not get finished, the second of the handwarmers in the pink colourway. I guess they will go in the box for next year.  

Most of all I am knitting to keep from thinking.  

There are good things on my horizons.  Beginnings,  moving forward, making a new way in this world, but my heart is set in 2013 and so it will ever be. 

“I wish it need not have happened in my time," said Frodo.
"So do I," said Gandalf, "and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us.” 
― J.R.R. TolkienThe Fellowship of the Ring

There are no choices but to move on, to move forward. Time does not stand still.  If it did, I would still be in those really great days between Brian's hospital stays and I would be sitting here, having coffee with him, and we would discuss the news and what we were going to do today even if the biggest thing in the day was how long a nap he was going to take. 

I look back with sorrow and longing, but at the very same time, I move forward, looking at the very good things that are happening for me and ever hopeful that they continue.  



Tomorrow I will knit something new, something fresh, something wonderful but today is for contemplating.  

Happy New Year.  It will be. I choose it to be.

4 comments:

Brendaknits said...

An interesting exercise would be to ask friends and family if they could have stopped the clock on the best times of their lives, when that might have been. Oh gosh - sentimental thinking for the beginning of the new year.
All the best for 2014, Denise.

Becky said...

Happy New Year Denise. It will be a great year and Uncle Brian would want it no other way.

Jessica Stevens said...

Aww mommy needles I love you even more for that lord of the rings reference. Oh I have a feeling that this year will be a much better year for everyone. Have a happy new year and I will talk to you next year

Sigrun said...

Happy New Year, Denise.